Been a while.

Kinda funny how relationships are.

I've finally come to a realization that Kenny and I just wont work. So I've stopped trying. I don't know if I 'm angry at him ... I'm just disappointed.

Funny thing is my first boyfriend just started talking to me regularly again. Not really out of no where but, more than usual which took me by surprise that way guess you could say. He's always been a really nice guy. We "dated" for a year three... no, longer ago than that. When I was 16 and he was 19. Only problem with the relationship was it was based over the internet, which I've learned isn't a good way to meet and date people. Not to mention I don't ever want to have to deal with long distance relationships again considering what it's done in the past. He sort of, came onto me I guess. At least that's how I interpreted it. And part of me wants to try it again but at the same time I can't beat down that nagging feeling that it just wouldn't work. And I told him that too. Thankfully he understands. I really, only consider him a friend. Something would need to happen in order for me to think otherwise because I mean, it's been so long and we've both changed a lot. I'm not stupid (well.. as stupid) as before and neither is he lol. So eh I dunno. It was just interesting.

Seriously though, I'm not really thinking about getting into a relationship with anyone right now anyway. Four years is hard to get over. And I'm working on it. The last way I want to "get over" someone is to do something crazy with someone else.

Well anyway. Aside from the drama that is relationships... I'm going out to the CO Ren Fest this Saturday with VKahri from deviantART since she's in town right now. :D Ought to be some fun. I don't have a lot of money to spend but, I'd at least be able to get in the door and buy something to eat along the way. I can't spend money as much as I want to sometimes. lol.

I'm not sure how Kenny'll react though since I know he works up there. He and I are on talking terms right now. He seems to be doing well. Started talking to me a few days ago about these girls he has after him. :rolls eyes: I just laugh at him. He always says that anyone interested in him is either way too young (like some 15 year old) or way too old (like 35 or something). He has one girl who's 18 after him which he doesn't feel so weird about but still not crazy about either. lol. He's so funny. I don't know why he indulges me about his social life when it comes to that when he knows how I feel but, eh whatever. I hope he finds someone else who's more tolerant of him and a push over. >_>; Obviously someone like me wasn't right for him but, oh well. I really shouldn't think about it. only makes me more angry.

But yeah anyway. Ren Fest should be fun. :3

I'm still moving out to Cali, too. Have to send in my application for the apartment. And Razi should be coming out here to CO in a few weeks I imagine.

So, pretty busy overall I guess. Still not sure what to do about my computer problem... we'll see...

~ Horus