Well, this will be my journal's new location. :3
The layout I barely edited, I only made the header a bit more personalized but other than that it's one of the default themes. I don't really care enough to change it and make it crazy looking lol. It's only for housing my thoughts at any rate.
Hmm.
Well. I have a lot on my mind these days. Work is kicking my ass. Like always. I actually had a good day today though. Very very tired though. I need a day off but, don't get that until Tuesday.
Excited about moving to Cali at the end of August. SO MUCH. But at the same time I'm also nervous but, that's to be expected right? lol.
As far as my emotions go... I'm not sure. I've done a lot of thinking and I just have decided, I need to let Kenny go. It's hard. It's SO hard. But it has to be done. I can't hold onto him forever. And I know if I let myself I will. So. Time to let go.
A part of me wants to meet new people. But at the same time I still feel weird about it. I dunno. It'll take time. It's only been a month since we broke up officially anyway. And I still don't know what that was when I did see him last. That's what bothers me most I think. As much as I wanted it, I wish we hadn't been intimate because it only made splitting up that much more difficult. I was rather reserved until he broke that barrier so I thought he meant something by it and who knows- maybe he did. I believe he did... I just wish he hadn't if he had no intention of trying to make things work out. I should have stood my ground and refused him but that's incredibly hard when you want it too, and are used to being cuddly and such. :shrug:
Eh whatever.
I'll do my best to move on. I already screwed things up anyway with what went on at deviantART. I called Kenny about it and he said the notes he was speaking of he had received months ago... and I wondered why now he chose to say something about it. I wish he had told me sooner. Ah well. Can't change the past I suppose...
I have always hated how little he ever calls me. I think he's called me only once in the last month or something. I usually am the one to call him... but... eh. it's over. I just need to forgive and forget it. I'll always remember the positive things between he and I, and I wouldn't trade those memories for anything. Kenny brought great joy to my life for a long time. I can't thank him enough for that.
man this ended up long... that always happens when I talk about him though rofl!
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- LadyHorus
- 21 years old, live in SoCal, currently trying to stabilize and find a good art college. :)
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Heh must been a long day well I might post my blog here as well, the personial stuff not the DA things as well. So you can tell who I am ^^ and actully I might like it here for personial stuff so hope you feel better and yada yada. Well its late but not late enough for me and now I will stop somewhat rambling.
Moving to Cali? >:3 you'll be only two states away from me, and only a few hours from Myde... you bet i will be paying you a visit when you do.
And get some freaking prints together and sign yourself up for a badge and a table at Yoai con... we can table next to each other :D
Hey! I'm nixi_gurl, just wanted to tell you that I've had an account here forever and im gonna follow you, i still can't believe how people sent hate mail to him >.< i mean sure some people would like to tell him how much of an ass he is, but still its just wrong! anyways if you wanna meet new people...i know online isnt always great but im around XD
Nyee, I know what it's like to lose someone you love...and it hurts ><
But there's always a way through it all, and if you don't keep your head in the past, things'll get better <3
Congrats on moving to Cali, btw. It's a fun place to be :3
I would totally befriend you irl if I lived in California XD; ..or at least try? <<;
But yes, things will get better and I'm sure you'll meet lots of new friends when you move, if not sooner ^^
Hey It's DrenchedInSoul. I kind shortened my name n__n;
I'd write more but its about to pour rain and my powers probably gonna go off. See ya!
Keep up the good work.
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